Life Where Art Thou ?

Ever had the feeling when it feel's like you are watching your own life from somewhere above ? I have always considered myself the underdog - down but not out. But now that my life is in a tailspin all my bravado seems to have left me. Like a paper soldier I am folding. I seem to have lost all control over my life. It is very difficult to do anything with your mind not in your body, when
normalcy takes on a sinister shape. Am I going mad or is it just a phase. Or better still have I just woken up ? Was all I knew a illusionary world which I had pulled over my eyes ? Living in self denial and only now when someone with simple words slapped me across the face did I snap out. I feel old. Very old and tired. I just do not know anything but what I do know is that my future will be revealed in a place beyond the hill's and far away.